When I Can

When I can I am going to love you
I am going to swallow you
when I can I will take a very slow and
long inventory of your body
I am going to memorize your lines
I am going to walk the hills of your flesh
until I am lost
     and you will never be invisible again

when I can I will beg for you
with my eyes and lips
with my life
when I can I will walk in your every step
balance with you on railroad tracks
climb steep trails through swaying red forests
walk cold sand
watch the sun sink golden at the
     last edge of your skin

when I can I will follow you everywhere
I will hold your hand fiercely
read the lines in your palms
you'll say -
shut your trap, kiss me here
and I will kiss you, always
everywhere and at all times
with and without your consent
when I can I will never let another day pass
without kissing you
always kissing you
without rest, without rest
when I can
I will love you again.

TA